måndag 31 mars 2008

It will end, but when?

It's seriously late. My stomac is hurting, my face is breaking out, my body is twitching from too much sugar. My spine is bent like a bloody fishhook and it feels like it'll pop out of my back any minute. My final project is due later today and I'm freaking out. I'v spent the week hunched over my laptop doing the writing part whilst my pc is burning through my pj pants. I haven't eaten any real food for three days, I'm counting on sugarcubes to keep me going now. My head is throbbing, I feel so unsure about everything and I really don't want to redo. My hands are shaking. Maaan the pressure, I can't wait for this shit to be over and when it is I'm so going to stuff my face.

fredag 28 mars 2008

sick and tired

My tummy has been hurting pretty bad but I figured it was because all of the crappy candy I got in my easter egg but I ate the last of it on like sunday so I figure it should have passed by now so I asked my mum and she said that it might be my appendix and that I should go to the hospital and check it out. I'm scared as hell, what if I have to remove it? It's not like I can't live without an appendix cuz I figure I'll survive that but it's the anaesthesia that freaks me out. I'v only ever had it once before and at the time I was aparently asleep like two houers longer than what they intended for me to be. What if I won't wake from it this time? Then I'll be sleeping for ten years and wake up to find out the world has been taken over by zombies or something like that. Or I'll just die. That would suck pretty bad.